great to be Mormon

These are my great grandparents! I never knew they were members of the same church as me till a month after I was baptized! My grandfather, there son pasted away in 1972 and he started the genealogy for our family... I'm trying to do work in the temple he left. I feel like things fell into place for me to be able to do this for my family. 

I just wish I could have been baptized sooner and dated my husband when we were still in HS but all things happen for a reason and I guess 3 kids and a divorce later we we're supposed to be.

Jade

This is Jade our pup who got really sick while at a family members house for a couple months.

She got bit by a tick and it gave her tick fever which never got treated... this ended up giving her an infection and nobody knew to get her treatment. With her immune system being compromised she ended up getting a disease called MMM (masticatory muscle myositis).Her mussels slow deteriorated and she couldn't eat or hardly move because the pain she was in. Sadly we decided to put her down and I don't think I'll ever get over this heartache or the thought of what if I could have done more or if I could have done something differently. My poor husband had her since she was a tiny little thing so I could only imagine what he was going through. 

happy to be me

I haven't posted in a very long time... That being said I'm going to try and get some posts up of what's been going on this past year in the Cook's lives. 

Here is today

Happy me! 

I honestly am the happiest I have EVER been in my life! 

 I feel like I have the best most amazing husband and children ever!

Christmas pictures

Merry Christmas from the Cook's

preschool

Recently I decided to open my own preschool. This decision came after my 3 year old didn't get in and the wait list was a mile long. I have taught at preschools for many years and it's so much fun and the fact that I can work from home and still have my children with me makes it an even better plan.

I only have 3 children enrolled being I didn't even begin the process till the end of July, but I'm pretty happy with that and call them my lil guinea pigs. We have tons of activity's and crafts we do.  It's really a  great learning experience for them and I.


I already have parents lined up for next year and am looking forward to a full class. I'm so blessed to have this amazing life. My husband has been very supportive and patient during this transformation.

lately...

So I was pretty depressed the last few months and actually have been doing pretty good now. I'm keeping busy with the preschool, 4 kids, a calling I thought I didn't like but as it turns out I'm pretty good at it and am now enjoying getting to know so many sisters in my ward, I have a few ladies I get along with and am slowly letting my guard down about letting them in as a friend, Iv'e been pretty involved with my RS president and we do things together outside of church and I feel the friendship building (something I never saw coming).

Don't worry you friends whom moved away... nobody can replace you!!!

Alyssa ~ I miss visiting teaching, park days, and your amazing way of teaching (specially my kids)

Katie ~ I miss park days, talks in the school parking lot and you raiding my pantry on Sundays

Laura ~ I miss calling you when I need to vent or gossip about the hubby, I miss craft days, and I miss your advice (specially about the church)

Mandy ~ I miss the playmates, yummy cupcakes on my birthday, and your amazing spirit

Marilyn ~ I miss laughing till my cheeks hurt at book club, I miss the girls, and I miss your advice

Marinda ~ I miss your carefree but organized personality, your fun energetic spirit, and our really really long conversations 

 Megan ~ I miss our card club conversations (your cards), your jello popcorn, and your craft ideas/quilting

as the world turn

I turned 29 this year! Most of my friends who read this are older than me and say I'm just a baby, 

but I have lived life in a crazy, fun, emotional, and even critical way, and I know that the future 

whatever it may bring will be full of love, hope, and the spirit.

Halloween preschool party!

Halloween with preschoolers!

Kloee is a Kindergarten graduate

Kindergarten graduate!

She did it!!! I can't believe after night's of pushing her to do her homework, or to read for 20 minutes, she's actually going on to 1st grade!

down and out

Recently I posted about my friends all moving away (unfinished post) this is kinda another "friend" post.

Lately I have no friends close to me... not a single one. I have reached out to a few trying to talk to them and even meet up for a visit... but haven't been able to yet. None of the ladies at my church want to be my friend, someone said I'm not old enough to be friends with them. I hear about all these play dates and other things the toddlers are doing and it hurts to think I don't have friends like that anymore! Book club sucks now, card club was a disaster last month, park day doesn't even exist and to top it all off I don't like my calling (not the calling but the people controlling it). I have a friend who comes over and helps me out once every 2 weeks and she's AMAZING but she doesn't have any children for mine to play with, so my 3 year old is always bugging us when we want to have adult time (time I need). I don't have "that friend" who will take on my kids so I can go to the dentist, or "that friend" I can barrow butter from on Sunday evenings, I don't have "that friend" I can do crafts with weekly while our children play together, I don't have a friend to spend time with at the park anymore, or even a friend I can help. I'm a looser, and a loner... I'm pathetic and sad all the time. If only 1 just 1 person would want to be friends with me maybe I wouldn't be so depressed, or such a cry baby. 

Iv'e been seeing a councilor for a few reasons and every time she asks why don't you have a friend to talk to or can't you get help with your 3 year old and get her a play date I burst into tears cause I don't and probably wont for a very long time. I hear about other people visiting my old friends and am jealous and am really depressed that I'm not friends with them anymore (I'm really not, they've moved on and made other friends and don't need (want) my friendship). Even the ladies I thought were my friends don't invite us to birthday parties, play dates  or really anything! I can't even talk with my husband because he ignores me, or is to involved in the TV. I don't sleep well, I'm stressed, I have no "adult" time. I hope I can get out of this slump, and make friends soon!