I want it back

I wake up empty today as I have lost a child. A child in which I wanted and loved with all my heart.

"I will never get to meet you, or see u on a scan,
I will never stroke your little cheek or kiss your little feet"

I miss being pregnant, I want to feel a child moving in my belly, I know I will see my baby one day but one day feels like too long. 

I love that my family is eternal and I love that my baby is being taken care of by loved ones

I still wish this didn't have to happen, I wish I didn't feel pain of heartache

(9 weeks)